In the SINGLE digits!!

Yay!! I'm in the single digits on my radiation treatments now. I only have 6 more to go. That would be the rest of this week and Monday/Tuesday of next week. Please keep me and my family in your prayers. The radiation is starting to take a toll on my body. I am sleeping about 20 hours a day. I am sitting in the recliner when I'm not in the bed. I have been driving myself to treatments for the last 3 1/2 months. I am praying I will be able to continue to do that. I am starting to feel the BURN in the places the sun doesn't shine!! It is just that . . . . a burn!! I spoke with the Radiation Oncologist Dr. Williams today and we both agreed that although the burn is very bad, we should proceed with treatment. I only have one more day (Tuesday of this week) to have radiation in the larger area, then on Wednesday of this week I will change to a smaller radiation field. I am having to take pain medicine now because it is becoming difficult to tolerate. Also, I have had the worst heartburn and indigestion that I've ever had. I don't know if that's because of the treatments or what, but it is making me miserable. It doesn't really matter what I eat, it only gets worse. I have tried taking prescription medicine for this, but it does not seem to help very much. When I get done with the radiation I'll go back on the "bad" chemo for 2 1/2 months. I have been so blessed to be able to get to the point where I am now. I have a unique situation in which I'm unable to urinate on my own and I'm having to self cath and I have a colostomy. I can't even begin to imagine the pain I would have if I had to go from "down there". My God is an Awesome GOD!!! Have a great week!!!

Funny DIRTY story . . .

Okay, so I'm at J.C. Penney the other day and went to the restroom. . . (no, I'm still not urinating on my own). I'm in there with my new addition and I always go to the "big girls stall" or "handicapped" whichever you prefer to call it. I'm not handicap so I guess that's why I call it the BGS. Anywho, I had my cell phone in the pocket of a velour jogging suit with pockets in the front. OH YES!! You guessed it, IT fell into the nasty PUBLIC toilet!! What was I to do?? I really needed the 800+ (being facetious) contact info on my sim card!! UGH!! Before I even looked to see if I had a scratch on my hand, It just dove in, and went straight for "one of the most important" devices I ever use. OMG, it was horrible. All these thoughts were running through my head, now I'm thinking, THANK GOD I had all my hepatitis shots!! So I wrap it up in paper towels and off to the truck I go. Oh, it gets wayyyy better, . . . it actually rings on my way home. I look at the caller i.d. It's none other than my wonderful husband. It's like he knew when to call. ha ha. Okay, so I'm over than now . . . and my husband went out the next morning and bought me the LG Vu touch screen. That was soooooooooo sweet, but . . . . I absolutely HATE it!! I'm gonna see how it works this week, but I really am NOT liking it at all so far. I like S I M P L E !! Well, the Vu is NOT simple. I'm just glad I didn't get the Palm Centro!! Okay on another note, my bottom is starting to feel the rays!! It's somewhat tolerable until . . . shower time!!! That's right, soap and burned skin (sensitive skin) do NOT mix!! I only have 11 more days of radiation and every day chemo!!! Whoo Hoo!! (I THINK) Please pray that I will be able to go straight through the treatments without a break or badly burned skin. If I have to take a break, it'll only take me longer to get through the treatments. I'm soooooooo looking forward to getting this all behind me (no pun intended)! I would like to say that I praise GOD for letting me make it this far and giving the cancer to my body instead of my child. I read a blog last night that made me so sad. A family had lost their 11 month old daughter after finding out she had ear infections . . . AND cancer that had spread through her body. The ear infection was what brought her to the Doctor's office. I feel so sad for this family knowing and loving their own flesh and blood for almost a year to only give her up. They seem very faithful, so they are in the BEST hands, but please pray for this family. I do NOT know this family at all. I came upon their blog through someone else's. I think their names are the McClendons. Please keep this family in your prayers. Also thanks for keeping me in your prayers, and I ask you to continue to pray for healing of my body. I don't know who you are that is reading this, but I love you anyway!! Have a blessed day.
Angie

Hurry up SPRING!!

Okay, so I guess by looking at my title you probably figured out that I'm so over winter, the snow, the freezing rain, the cold, blah, blah, blah. So bring on the lovely season (my favorite, escpecially in Kentucky) . . . S P R I N G ! It seems so short when it finally does get here, but I love it anyway. The most beautiful pictures are taken during that time. I have taken 13 out of 30 chemo/radiation treatments now so, I'm almost half way through my treatments. I am getting very tired lately. My eyes will literally try closing up during the day. I'll be going down the road coming back from radiation and it'll just be one eye usually, but it'll try closing. I get so frustrated, I asked my doctor the other day what it was and she said, "Honey, you're doing too much, you need to rest a little". I am guilty of that. I rest whenever I can, but lately I've been sleeping ALOT!! Oh, and my new favorite food is Fruit Loops with Marshmallows. They are the bomb!! Derek keeps telling me I'm going to turn into a Fruit Loop. So funny!! Well back to my health . . . I have another blood clot in my leg so they tested me for another Pulmonary Embolism, (which thank God I didn't have). Thanks for all the prayers, btw!! I know I'll get through this (especially since I'm almost halfway done with treatments), but it's still easy to get in that zone of "what if". I am always thinking something bad is going to happen to me. I don't know why I'm so afraid because this life is temporary anyway, but I think it's because I want to be selfish and watch my son graduate from college and see him have a family of his own. We just don't ever know. This past week one of my co-worker's husband went to take the trash out, slipped on the ice and hit his head. He had seizures and then he passed away. They tried reviving him at the hospital but it was too late. So we never know when our last day will be. I don't mean to sound so pesimistic (not sure if I spelled it right), but with my situation it's easy to "think about things". I hate to be selfish, but I think we'd all feel the same way about wanting to see our families grow up. I am so thankful for each day I have lived. I have a wonderful life, not perfect by far, but a pretty great one. Thanks Kim for reminding me of the upcoming holiday so I could change my page. Oh, did I mention I love to watch iCarly and George Lopez? ha ha
. . . till next time,
Angie